Hopeful

The problem with me is I always want the things that I cannot get. It’s like I constantly challenge myself to a losing game. It’s probably because no matter how naïve, cynical and jaded I seem to be, whether I admit it or not, there’s always that hopeful little kid in me who firmly holds on to the thought of happy endings.

Blueball Dating

Why does this always happen? Just when you thought everything is going fine, it goes kaput all of a sudden.

Are people just being nice to me and I'm just vulnerable or am I just really that unlucky? Seriously, it's tiring.

They always say it'll come when you least expect it. Does that mean that my time will never come if I do expect or anticipate for the rest of my life? Now that's just depressing.

It never happens does it? How you imagine it to be. So I don't know why I'm still here waiting for your response.

Coincidence

It really is funny how fate plays a practical joke sometimes. Don't you just hate it when someone (who loved, hurt and left you) from your past has practically died in your book and suddenly gets resurrected?

The fact that I'm still glad to hear from you makes everything worse. Why am I even talking to you when three Christmases ago, your special present for me was a river of my own tears coupled with pain and sadness? Do you even know the kind of devastation I was when you left?

A part of me wants to raise numerous unanswered questions but another wants to just forget and start anew.

You tell me you miss me and I believe you. I miss you too. But what now?